Signing off, Kuhu (3/3)

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It's currently 3:10 am in Mumbai while I type out this post at the airport, blasting Deewangi Deewangi on my earphones, trying my best to not fall asleep before my flight.
It feels like the apt time to write this blog.

In all honesty, I have no idea what I'm gonna be writing in this post, or how I'm going to structure any of it. It's been buried in my to-do list for the past several weeks (17, to be precise), yet I'm at a loss for words on how to go about the post.

Every time I proofread this post, I have new things to add (literally typing this sentence out with T-5 to the post), but I'll try my best to convey this in the best way I can at the moment.

Exactly 5 years ago, I remember sitting at my table 30 minutes before my first blog post came out: crying. 
5 years later, I get a little teary-eyed to write the next sentence: Damselzinsanity is coming to an end.

The past 5 years have felt like a surreal roller coaster. I never imagined that a simple activity would groom me into the person I am today, and it feels a little bittersweet to say goodbye to the thing I've held so close to my heart all these years. Yet, somehow, it feels like the right time.

I started off with the mission of normalising conversations around mental health struggles that teens go through daily. However, as I approach my 20s (eee, so old), I feel more outgrown from the teen mindset & its associated issues.

As I venture into a completely new stage of life, I feel more and more lost, yet even more excited to explore & figure out what life holds for me.

No, my interest in Mental Health hasn't vanished - I'll always be a staunch advocate for public policy & destigmatizing the social taboo surrounding it. It's more about growing out of this blog's aim.
I probably won't delete this blog; maybe I'll leave it up for my younger sister, who (though she won't admit it) might benefit from it somewhere along the road :)

And for what's next in store for me? I honestly have no idea.
And maybe that's the good part, right? Keeps life exciting & what not? 
(My foresighted self is totally not secretly panicking.)
(Maybe go read your blogs to learn how to cope with these thoughts, Kuhu)
(I need to stop talking to myself through parentheses.)

ANYWAYS!

Thank you to every single one of you who's read my work and supported my work over the past 5 years. Your encouragement was and will always be my motivation, and I will really miss all your compliments, suggestions, comments, and stories. 

I'll miss my Instagram feed being full of mental health concept-related posts.
I'll miss observing people around me and maybe secretly writing posts around them.

I will miss every single lesson this blog has given me and if you ever read any of my posts, I hope I was able to help you, even 1%.

P.S. If anyone chooses to start a mental health blog someday down the road, here's a list of blog ideas that remained as drafts in my notes app:




Yup, I guess...this is it.
That means..Goodbye? Or maybe a more Bollywood-style exit?

Agar kisi cheez ko puri shiddhat se chaaho, toh saari kayanaat tumhe usse milane ki koshish mei lag jaati hai. 
(Translated: If you really want something from your heart, the entire universe becomes determined to bring it to you)

Signing off,
One last time,
Kuhu :)

Comments

  1. AnonymousAugust 14, 2025 at 6:57 PM

    Your sharp observations and brilliant analogies will be missed, here’s hoping for your grand Bollywood comeback!

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