Damselz-In-Sanity

Heylo everyone and welcome to a fresh new month :) I'm back with another poem - born at 18:42pm on a Friday when I had over 17 things on my to-do list but felt like doing nothing but a 'poem rant'. Presenting to you, Goodbye; High School. In all honesty, I have no idea where I’m headed with this. I sit at my table, staring at the screen’s glare, How did it get so complicated? I weep in my despair. 800 pages of Organic Chemistry A pinch of 150 Math sums too, Juggling to complete my research paper, My senses wish adieu. This inevitable pressure to have it all, Does anyone truly? An overcast cloud; unduly. Get good grades, You’ll have an amazing college; How do I manage it all? My mental health - acknowledge? I want to scream and shout and break everything around, But here I sit; Straining my eyes out. The relentless comparison, The fights to be on top, Will YOU ever make up, For the friends, I had to drop? Flustered I cry, Waiting for every day to get by. For a year from now,...

Welcome to the Classroom of Crazy Let’s have a quick roll call Everyone do your signature  And introduce yourself to all! Hi! I’m Andy Anxiety, I tend to overthink a lot Sometimes I get panic attacks, Other times, my horse I trot. Hello, I’m Olive OCD Most people think I’m all about cleaning, Some weird super power I possess? Well it’s mostly just sleeping. Hey, I’m Debbie Depression, Some days..I just can’t, I have to keep a straight face through it all, In profession, I’m a lieutenant.  HOWDY! I’M ASTRID ADHD I might be a little talkative and loud, It started towards teenage, Being a National level runner is something that makes me proud! Hi, I’m Belle Bulimia I look for comfort in my food, As a child I got ‘bullied’ a lot And I like dancing to Bollywood! Hello, I’m Polly PTSD, I’m hypervigilant and flashback prone, People think I have zero interests But I’m fond of painting stones! Hie, I’m Bob Bipolar My brain has severe mood swings, AAAAA SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I love m...

"Ugh I can't solve this right now, I'll do this as homework." The homework: Stuck to the computer, Eye power going up, “Come outside for dinner” 2 minutes hours - Let me just finish this mock-up! Decoding at two in the morning, With a cup of coffee at the side , How did I fall in love with the subject? Okay, I tried! System.out.println(); Or print(‘I’m gonna win’); The inevitable battle between Java and Python, It’s 3am. Why am I hearing a violin? Gah! This code is killing me, I’m just gonna go sleep now. Binary code and The Matrix in my mind, The answer came up in my dream somehow? Hopped on to the computer, Single handedly making the coffee industry a billionaire, Ladies and Gentlemen, she’s solved the code! It’s time to get out of your sleepwear. From “Hello World”, To a 10th grade ‘Tech'- Tac Toe, A 3 line code, Became a kilo. Can’t wait to study this in the future, Probably going to get a lot worse, But Hey! It pays off at the end It makes your brain a lot m...

  Hello Doctor Google  Please tell me what I have I've been unable to sleep lately  "Insomnia you could catch?" Hello Doctor Google  Please tell me what I have I like cleaning obsessively  "Is it OCD that has hatched?"  Hello Doctor Google  Please tell me what I have I don't like going out at all "Social Anxiety's in your bag"  Hello Doctor Google  Please tell me what I have It's like two people living in my head "Bipolar disorder, you trash" Hello Doctor Google  Please tell me what I have I suffer from excessive heavy breathing   "Anxiety, is that what's in your stash?" Hello Doctor Google  Please tell me what I have  I'm sad 24x7  "Congratulations, with depression you have a match!" Hello Doctor Google Please tell me what I have I get traumatic flashbacks "PTSD, is it that?" Hello Doctor Google Please keep your advice away Give me the closest clinic's number  I need to make sure I'm ...

  Am I doing everything wrong? Why can't I ever get it right? Is this not the correct way? "Oh my God, just get up and fight." It's been so long I can't seem to do it  I feel like giving up She says "Shut up, go for a run and get mentally fit!" They will laugh at me They'll talk behind my back "So what?" she said, "Just go and have a snack." I'm doing this wrong I have the instinct  This is not the way others do it She said, "You can be distinct!" I don't have the time I don't have the press She said, "Who cares?" "Stop taking so much stress!" I've been doing it for so long I've found no outcome Should I just give up? " Please get this thought out of your system" I'll be the talk of the town Once everything opens up THEY'LL TALK ABOUT ME "Mhmm, yup" So..? Is this how it ends? Me spiralling down a vertigo "Just chill!" screamed that voice in my ...